Sometimes all you need is a goal.
Four hours.
Just four hours.
Just keep it together for four more hours.
Four hours of complete agony.
Complete facade.
Then relief.
Then complete and utter reality.
Reality to just let everything fall
Everything fall
Fall into a million pieces
Not trying to hold it together
Not squeezing tight
Not making sure everything stays in one piece
just Relief
Relief to be real
Relief to be vulnerable
Relief to admit everything is not ok
Relief will come
just Four more hours.
I hope you found someone to talk to after those four hours... I know you are strong Jenny, but it is ok to break down sometimes... I'm sorry I haven't been much of a support lately :( I want to help somehow, but I often don't know how to do that...not trying to make an excuse, just trying to let you know what is going on in my head..
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